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i wish me and her were close like this again, i love crk, and so does she. [7/21]

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i made this because i just really wanted to make a cute little blog of some sort, but its just mostly me ranting and crying about random stuff, hi friends!! :] my silly channel.

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!!!!okay guys there used to be an old vent here but it was hella emotional so if u read the paragraph below thats why im acting like i wrote here before!!!!

OKAYYY GUYYSS hehe its been like over a month and theres some mega updates! first of all me and my gf got back together! DONNNTTTT judge me okay theres perfect explanations on both sides of the story and NO ONE is the bad guy trust! uh and i also got therappyyyy pretty awesomeee!! thats honestly all tbf cause life aint interessting bruh. school started like 3 weeks ago and god DAMN my backpack is heavy, i got a whole laptop, math workbook, and two fat chapter books bruuu. i tried taking out my folders for band class but that did nothinngg..imma get hella shoulder problems fr!!!!!! anywayssssss imma rant about my gf so if you hate sappy stuff then tee hee GET OUT!!!!!!!! anyway.. oh my GOD i love my gf. not even kidding i LOVE HERRRRRRRR AAAAAAAAA shes beautiful, shes perfect, and YEAH she got problems but me too dude aint nobody is THAT perfect, shes just 99.99% perfect.. anyway god she makes me feel crazy. i love her more than anything and im not trying to brag BUUUTTTTT shes the best ever, she understands me and i understand her, shes caring and always there to support me when she can, and im ALWAYS there to support her when i can!! shes the only person i can truly be myself around, and sometimes theres things she does that tick me off but hey, i think its hella cute. like when she subconsiously says "being srs but.." infront of almost every sentence she says to me, its adorable. and sometimes its repetitive but she cant control it, what a cutie!!! :D ! its also adorable how she speaks. sometimes her voice goes soft around me, usually when shes tired. gosh, its so adorable. usually her voice is consistent and velvety, but when shes tired, its a soft and low cute little voice, she only makes that voice when shes tired, or telling me that she loves me. i like to believe its something she only does for me, but hey, cant be too cocky right? anyway, sometimes when me and her call i go quiet, its really because i have nothing to say, but i always desperately want to call with her, it makes me comfortable, and safe and happy. and sadly, its a long distance relationship. im not able to give her all the love i truly feel about her, so the next best thing is writing it down, no? i so desperately want to hold her hands, as im typing this my fingers are starting to freeze up due to the coldness of my bedroom, and i wish her hands could warm mine up. i wish she could hold me and kiss me softly. i wish i wish i wish i can be there to tell her that shes a good person, shes beautiful, shes caring and kind and smart. shes not a bad person, she never was. i wish i could be right there next to her, telling her, "i want to see you win, i so hope that you reach every dream youve ever dreamt, i want you to overcome your problems. im your biggest fan, i love you, i want you to achieve your goals.". right there, right there just to tell her.

and nova, if youre reading this, i know i sometimes seem harsh or just like an idiot. but ml, i so wish to be that soft girl for you. i really do wish it, but im so afraid to be vunerable again, im so scared that if i let my guard down, ill get hurt all over again. im afraid that you dont care, im afraid that at some point, ill be left in the dust without you. if one day, i finally let my guard down, and become that soft girl again, just know that im scared every day of my life, but holy hell will it be worth it, if youre with me, theres nothing for me to be afraid of. i love you, more than anyone could. more than id like to admit..

9/2/24

HAIIIILOOO guys! not too many updates curreeeeenntlllllyyyy but man I WANNA RANT ABOUT MY GF!!!!!!!!!!!! shes everything to me. sometimes i catch myself feeling really unwell, but the thought of her in pain because im gone is too much for me to bear. i never want to hurt her, at all. shes everything to me, i worry about her every day, im worried for the next time her emotions act up, but ill be ready. because i love her, i will always be right there to care for her, ill be right there to reassure her. and when im not worrying, i just think about her, her adorable personality. every single word she says makes my heart skip a beat, every word is a tiny surprise, and everything and anything i couldve ever wanted. i still have alot of trust issues, since im afraid she'll switch up on me and leave me again. proabably one of my greatest fears, to be honest. well, thats all. see you, or not! i might die!

I really hope she doesn't break her promise. i hate getting the cold shoulder, I wish my binxy was here.

I've been feeling uncomfortable around one of my friends, they only says the same 3 sentences, they just act funky and it makes me standoffish, I guess life is like that.

I wish I was a baller